Feeling emo.. with you gone.. Awaiting ur return my love!!

All At Sea by Richard Walters

Silence is empty, filled with breaths from mouths
that never move no more

she talked some more, she talks now

and all the lights went out in empty rooms
and now the empty hall

I talk alone, i talk now

And all I wanted was a Chance to see you anyway

hold me, fold me up in your arms
faster, my love, sinking and gone

I was aware the time, I was a son before i met you dear

I talk alone, i talk now

and all the lights go out in empty rooms
and now the dirty hall

I talked alone, I talk now
And all I wanted was a Chance to see you anyway

Hold me, fold me up in your arms
Faster, my love, shrinking and gone

Hold me, my love
Telling me don't be afraid
Wouldn't you want me to swim
Wouldn't you want me to stay?

Hold me my love
Telling me won't be afraid
Wouldn't you want me to swim
Wouldn't you want me to stay

Fuck u got to watch this clip..

Talented gaybois who hv to much time.. but seriously they are good!!

LGBT History Month..

October brings many things to me this year.. Its naturally the month of my birth.. that aside.. its also usually brings the month in which i have my finals.. (depressing how that may sound).. Raya also happens to fall in October lately.. Uhm what else.. yes for all those gays, lesbians, transgendered, bisexual. curious and all those in betweens.. the month of October happens to be the LGBT History Month.. So inlight of this i would like to leave a link for which at ur pleasure u may view the LGBT Icon of this year:

Yay!! A Treo..

Today i'm blessed with my new handphone.. Its a Treo 750 v.. Personally i hv no special use for HP or PDA's.. but the treo holds a special place at my heart.. it's msg application is simple yet has a memory which records all ur chats in one folder.. its great as all msg's with my friends and.. yes lover.. is kept into seperate folders which can be viewed historically.. and a added application enables me to chat online wherever I am.. no longer am i barred from chatting!!


I had a few PDA's in the past.. An older version of Treo.. A O2.. uhm my last hp was a soni ericson which was unfortunately took a swim in Sunway Lagoon and is currently under service.. Well i hope this one does not befall any ill's.. thanks dad for actually listening to for i want.. i must say this is a pleasant surprise!!

A day at the theme park!!

I was fortunate enough to be invited to take a few kids out for a day at the theme park.. Ethan had invited me and it was there that i met this beautiful little gurl called Tina.. Such a adorable kid.. Tina is 4 and loves chicken.. Taking the kids out were owh soo tiring.. we went swimming.. took rides and rode slides.. all in all.. I experienced the energy that a four year old had at their disposal.. ((and let me tell u.. with all the worries of safety and more i should give more credit to my parents for their patients in my upbringing..)) meet new friends.. Vennice.. Happy B'day girl!! and thanks for inviting me to that party of yours.. though we met only once.. my first impression of these people were fun!! Ash, Renuka, Vennice, Ricky and my old school chum.. Daniel.. It was a pleasure meeting u guys!! Owh and Daniel.. Thnxs for taking the pics..

Starting off:



Me and TiNa:



The GaNg:



Were off!!

Suicide.. Is it really worth it?

There was a death in IXORA apartment yesterday.. this is the second death that has taken place in my apartment building.. last year it was a boy in the boys apartment.. and now a gurl from the gurls apartment.. it seems so sensless as suicide seems to me as a cowards way out.. some say the courage to take ur life is alot.. i dissagre.. the courage to stay put in this hellhole we call life take more courage than a simple act of jumping from a building.. to know that u could have ended all ur troubles easily and still holding on to life.. now that is courage..

We have all at one point in our life hv thought of suicide.. its natural.. an easy solution that seems so ideal.. So what pulls us back from this self distruction? I ask myself.. Is it family? a loved one? nope..not strong enough.. to me.. its the desire to LIVE and go through this pain in the hopes of finding something worth living for when everything seems so bleak because if i were to let go.. what does that say about myself and my worth.. i ain't never cheap.. i have my flaws and everything.. but i can't see myself as a waste to let others pick-up after myself..

So... If u ever feel like taking that sweet life of urs.. just pick up that phone and dial 103 and ask for befrienders as advised by my lovely lecturer Mdm Flora.. personally.. i say just call any of ur pals.. go out clubbing.. have some booze if that makes u happy.. talk.. open up.. don't mess it up with what nots or what it could have been as that is the past.. just think of what u want.. how u plan to get it and set a goal... plan that long overdue vacation.. if u gona kill urself i say u damn well deserve a time out..

Love that man of mine..

Love this clip!!