MeRdEKa!!

It's our country's 50 anniversary of it's independance and here I am celebrating at PureBar counting down the final secomds with my friends.. After all that our country has been through.. The GOOD and the BAD.. It is truely remarkable the strides that has taken place and how far we've come.. Dancing to our country's independance may not be the idealistic way of celebrating but as we'd just finnished our criminal paper it fealt great..

I was tempted into pondering one question that night.. What state will our country be in in the next 50 years.. Will our country be totally different? Will the cultures of this country be assimilated? Will such unity still exist?

As for now.. I shall enjoy this celebration and leave these thoughts for another day..

Boy Meets Boy

The story of my life.. Or so I had hoped and dreamed in my childhood.. it sounds simple enough but life never is.. We meet people along the way.. Some we charish moments together that may last a time while others its just a moment of a fleeting shared glance..

Its wonderfull to feel these emotions and also hurtful when it ends.. I remember staring into this guys eyes once.. It was a long stare we shared that lasted a little to long to be normal.. Such bliss and mystery it gave me in my years of solitude in search of my man to come.. It was not the fact that i did not get meet that guy.. but the shared glance was enough to give me hope for things to come..

I am reminded on a book on young love.. As the title of this blog suggest its called Boy Meets Boy by David Levthan.. Such a simple sweet book that won my heart.. A book i wished i had as a boy growing up..


When u think on it.. Is gay love really different from that of str8t love?

Back to school... that we call life!

Owh.. life is full when ur busy and can't seem to find the time for urself... Assignments, friends, research, reports.. Ain't life grand!! Student life seems so leisurely, u don't have to worry about bills, mortgage, any of those mundane stuff that are associated with adulthood.. But it is easily forgotten by our parents what it was like to feel young.. the yearning to do stuff. To make our own mistakes.. to feel in love and not feel alone.. We make our stand.. each generation doing it differently from the past.. each of us trying to make our mark.. Being different is nothing new.. it is that we rise above ourselves and try to make a difference that we truly define ourselves.. hum.. who am I to judge.. made my share of mistakes.. and I’ll probably make more.. hopefully I’ll learn from the past.. but the mistake is mine to make, for how else am I to learn?

Musings of a young man..

I feel like there's something missing... the second foot hasn't fell.. the quite before the storm.. I feel people are holding out on me.. I felt the week was great but that it was not over.. my world is this expanding bubble that is about to burst but just wouldn't... I am in anticipation of a certain disaster.. i'm feeling so pessimistic and yet I can't help myself.. feeling hopeless in this situation.. An impending disaster? Only time will tell..

Is there trust here? I feel like every turn is a pitfall.. will a small mistake will be the end of me? No one is telling the truth or are they keeping it to themselves? Why can’t they be open.. communication is key rite? Can there ever be trust? To hell with this..

A Firts Date..

These feelings of insecurity is always prevalent before I go on a date.. So freaking nervous that I resort to calling my friends just to pass the time till that moment approachers.. I mean in these days and times online dating is not a big deal.. U exchange pics.. Make a few calls and then u meet.. But i must say.. This was a first for many.. First it was one of the fastest that i set a date for which we would meet up.. Another is that this guy did not plan to get into my pants on the first date... Big potential there.. Uhm.. what else? even after a day i still have that uplifting feeling.. Well a dinner followed by ice-cream seems like a typical date but for me it was a milestone as i for one hv never been in any sort of date let alone a relationship.. This is a first of first in the hopes that there'll be more to come.. So I'll leave it there.. For now!!

Gunung Nuang here i come!!

Woah can hiking be taken into a new level when u add PLU into the picture.. Man the first thing that came to my mind was an orgy in the woods.. well who wouldn’t have entertained that idea.. But enough of this non-sense.. it started with the guys picking us up at Pudu.. from which we went TESCO.. got our supplies and headed back to one of the guys houses.. it was there that were I gathered myself an got to know our host who to me was very welcome since he had not even met me once.. very generous of him..


We then had dinner at a nearby stall from which a few other members were introduced.. The next day we all set out early to meet the other hikers.. these guys come from all walks of life.. some old some just starting there life others like me still in Uni.. I guess I was the youngest.. with my lack of experience I was kinda nervouse… plus my friend who came with me was stuck with his ‘partner’ so I was left to fend for myself.. it was all good as I was then introduced to a few great guys who I then spent most of the trip with,..


Hiking up to the campsite was plain torture.. with a few advice from joe and crewcut I found that most of it was due to improper use of the equipment.. the ground was muddy and slippery.. fuh!! Was sweeting like mad.. along the way saw many beautiful sites.. kind of woodsy type of person.. um.. after 3-4 hours tracking with God know how many pitstops.. we manage to reach the campsite..




We set up the camp an I took the opportunity to jump into the water.. and was it freezing!! I think my balls were like ice-cubes the whole trip:P.. that nite after the introduction sessions nad most of the others were in bed I gave the suggestion to play strip poker.. man was I in for a surprise.. I was the first to loose but thankfully not the only one.. I was winning and suddenly I had a loosing strike that came out of nowhere..

So off came the pants and everything.. later we all jumped into the water buff!! Let me assure u that nothing improper happened.. we were after all in the woods..

Next day those who wanted to go to the peak headed up while the rest of us (including me) minded the camp.. After D-camping we all headed down.. this trip was much easier.. made it in roughly 1-2 hours..


Going back I went with abang zack and abang amir.. they dropped me off at abang azmi’s house which I thought was the agreed upon meeting.. but due to some misunderstanding with my friends I had to wait 30-45 minutes until the got back from Dinner!! Well life’s teaches u stuff and I took this as a lesson learned..


But overall it was a great experience.. met great guys.. caring individuals.. a myriad of personalities.. (hey, i kinda acted abit queeny during the end of the trip, who new i had it in me?) :p

Hiking??

Whoa.. what have I gotten myself into? Hiking!! And Gunung Nuang at that.. I must confess I’m in no shape to do any such stunt.. It’s been so long that I have camped that I forgot the last time I did it.. We hopefully it’ll be fun.. I need this stress reliever if its gonna kill me.. :p

Hum.. Thank the stars that my exams are finally over.. minus of course Criminal Law which is on the 30th and that leaves me only with my assignments..

Oh well.. Will see how this week turns out..

Owh P/s: Did i mention i got a new haircut?