Happy Birthday Soni!!

So it was Soni's Birthday.. Took her to JJ and had a quater Cheesecake.. Followed with a movie:



The idiot thought that was it.. Was she in for a surprise!! Yes Soni.. We All LOVE You..





So glutten!! Macam tak cukup mkn jer! We feed u Kay!

Got caught.. Finally!!

So I finally got my first experience of getting rushed!! 

Long lost Cuz's.. They are soo CUTE!!

So I met some of my cousins from Kelantan that i never knew I had.. Man arn't they sooooo CUTE!!











I'm a CamWhore.. I'll admt!!

BlueBoy!!

Going to a gaybar is kinda new to me.. So i decided to take up on my friends invitation to go to BlueBoy.. Okay, BlueBoy is most closely descibd as Malaysia's oldest gay discotheque.. Still the thought of me going in there was quite unnerving.. Man was I in for a suprise. thinking that it would be mostly filled with old guys.. hehe.. it was filled with a surprising mix of age groups.. My date who I happen to meet formally that night showed me around to a couple of guys that were regulars.. man were those boys cute.. well nothing really was outstanding but it had the feeling of being permanant.. like these boys will forever be here.. or that gays would still be coming here when I'm gone.. A nice thought to have a gay landmark?? Well the music was trans/disco which is not my usual thing being that i'm used to R&B.. But nevertheless it did not stop me from trying to dance. I must stress the trying as i was not even close to being a good dances in this arena.. Owh the boys dancing had my eyes glued (a private fantasy has been always to see cute boys dancing together, young love on the dance floor) funny how such a beautiful moment may last only a few minutes but the theme gets repeated all nite with different partners.. Overall it was a memorable event.. NITE!!

Preparing for todays Open House!! while getting a little buzzed..

okay.. i just got back like 6am this morning and i'm up by 8:30am to prepare the open house.. kinda a hectic day.. thankfully i have a friend in Absolut Peach Vodka.. mind u i'm not one to drink early in the morning..but the situation called for a mild dose of liquor.. A splash of that vodka.. fill it with ice and coverit with 7-up.. Now i'm pleasantly on a mild high.. nothing that'll make me drunk but enough to get me going..

Now my friends will ask me what the hell i'm doing getting a drink at my parents house.. I seriously dunno.. Will need to re-look at things.. Anyways, i might actually need to go for an AA meeting..

Final Night in HatYai..

Traditionally in my family Raya would go amiss without us stopping for a few nights in Hat Yai.. As we've been living there for a few years in my youth.. we would go back to kl from Bangkok driving down to Songklar.. stopping by HatYai and finally making our way back to kl.. Thus after we moved back to Malaysia we decided to go back to HatYai every year.. Firstly it was to renew our car tax as we braught back out thai plated car.. from there it just became tradition.. Having came here for the food.. HatYai has become a place to go if i ever need a short vacation.. Food, shopping and just relaxing at the hotel is a known comfort to me.. Something that has become dependable..

So as i write this down.. thanks to the free wi-fi provided by the Hotel.. I look into the past an though it may never seem much of a place to that where I've been.. It's still a place where i shall return to..

My one and only gurl!!

A shout-out to my gurl Ain wherever u are.. My dear, my heart misses u presence.. This line of passion that we secretly shared from the moment we meet could never be erased from any distance or that of any other boundaries.. u’ve seen me at my worst and I’ve seen urs.. this Raya I’m thankful of ur unfailing support.. a gurl like u comes only once in a lifetime..

Luv ya to peaces gUrL!!

Favourite Raya message:-

Hari Raya untuk adik-adik bermaksud:

1. Bersolat sunat raya
2. Bermaaf-maafan
3. Cover-cover depan parents
4. Pakai baju melayu segala tapi tetap pakai lipgloss serta foundation
5. Usha sepupu-pupu yang hensem, pastu bersalam lama-lama pulak
6. Memakai keronsang yang over kat songkok
7. Mengambil kuih dengan jari-jemari yang lentik
8. Berjumpa dengan makcik-macik yang bermulut lahanat
9. Yang penting ko tetap voque dan vass.. TAPI.. kalau ko jenis yang str8act tetap maintain giler-giler..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA U ALLS!!

Selamat Hari Raya!!

Bonne Aidilfitri!
A mes amir..
Pardonne-moi si j’ai fait puelque chose blessant..
“Désolé zahir et batin”
Bises,
Matt

Is it Over?

Exams are finally over and the holiday depression starts!! I’m kidding but only by half!! I’ve made mistakes in my life but never one this BIG or this Stupid.. In one moment of weakness I’ve destroyed the one good thing I had going and also hurt a person in doing so.. How can one forgive oneself in such a festive moment..? U dread not hearing from that beloved thinking no matter what you say and do to redress that wrong U will never be forgiven.. U hang by a thread thinking all the possible scenarios.. Resort to reading a book only to find that of all lucks it represents your story albeit in a different venue and circumstances.. the sheer closeness of the issue grabs u.. I shall miss the companionship.. It is a lesson learned.. Hopefully this boi shall grow and not make this same mistake..

Birthday Boi!!

Yup I’m finally 20.. A year more till I’m legally old enough register and go out clubbing.. Ah but who to vote for.. As of this moment none seem at all beneficial to my community or that of the people at large.. Well I would like to thank Rema for the wonderful Pizza we had and to Sonia for taking me out and spending the evening with me and sorry for going out in that ungodly hour..

Feeling emo.. with you gone.. Awaiting ur return my love!!

All At Sea by Richard Walters

Silence is empty, filled with breaths from mouths
that never move no more

she talked some more, she talks now

and all the lights went out in empty rooms
and now the empty hall

I talk alone, i talk now

And all I wanted was a Chance to see you anyway

hold me, fold me up in your arms
faster, my love, sinking and gone

I was aware the time, I was a son before i met you dear

I talk alone, i talk now

and all the lights go out in empty rooms
and now the dirty hall

I talked alone, I talk now
And all I wanted was a Chance to see you anyway

Hold me, fold me up in your arms
Faster, my love, shrinking and gone

Hold me, my love
Telling me don't be afraid
Wouldn't you want me to swim
Wouldn't you want me to stay?

Hold me my love
Telling me won't be afraid
Wouldn't you want me to swim
Wouldn't you want me to stay

Fuck u got to watch this clip..

Talented gaybois who hv to much time.. but seriously they are good!!

LGBT History Month..

October brings many things to me this year.. Its naturally the month of my birth.. that aside.. its also usually brings the month in which i have my finals.. (depressing how that may sound).. Raya also happens to fall in October lately.. Uhm what else.. yes for all those gays, lesbians, transgendered, bisexual. curious and all those in betweens.. the month of October happens to be the LGBT History Month.. So inlight of this i would like to leave a link for which at ur pleasure u may view the LGBT Icon of this year:

Yay!! A Treo..

Today i'm blessed with my new handphone.. Its a Treo 750 v.. Personally i hv no special use for HP or PDA's.. but the treo holds a special place at my heart.. it's msg application is simple yet has a memory which records all ur chats in one folder.. its great as all msg's with my friends and.. yes lover.. is kept into seperate folders which can be viewed historically.. and a added application enables me to chat online wherever I am.. no longer am i barred from chatting!!


I had a few PDA's in the past.. An older version of Treo.. A O2.. uhm my last hp was a soni ericson which was unfortunately took a swim in Sunway Lagoon and is currently under service.. Well i hope this one does not befall any ill's.. thanks dad for actually listening to for i want.. i must say this is a pleasant surprise!!

A day at the theme park!!

I was fortunate enough to be invited to take a few kids out for a day at the theme park.. Ethan had invited me and it was there that i met this beautiful little gurl called Tina.. Such a adorable kid.. Tina is 4 and loves chicken.. Taking the kids out were owh soo tiring.. we went swimming.. took rides and rode slides.. all in all.. I experienced the energy that a four year old had at their disposal.. ((and let me tell u.. with all the worries of safety and more i should give more credit to my parents for their patients in my upbringing..)) meet new friends.. Vennice.. Happy B'day girl!! and thanks for inviting me to that party of yours.. though we met only once.. my first impression of these people were fun!! Ash, Renuka, Vennice, Ricky and my old school chum.. Daniel.. It was a pleasure meeting u guys!! Owh and Daniel.. Thnxs for taking the pics..

Starting off:



Me and TiNa:



The GaNg:



Were off!!

Suicide.. Is it really worth it?

There was a death in IXORA apartment yesterday.. this is the second death that has taken place in my apartment building.. last year it was a boy in the boys apartment.. and now a gurl from the gurls apartment.. it seems so sensless as suicide seems to me as a cowards way out.. some say the courage to take ur life is alot.. i dissagre.. the courage to stay put in this hellhole we call life take more courage than a simple act of jumping from a building.. to know that u could have ended all ur troubles easily and still holding on to life.. now that is courage..

We have all at one point in our life hv thought of suicide.. its natural.. an easy solution that seems so ideal.. So what pulls us back from this self distruction? I ask myself.. Is it family? a loved one? nope..not strong enough.. to me.. its the desire to LIVE and go through this pain in the hopes of finding something worth living for when everything seems so bleak because if i were to let go.. what does that say about myself and my worth.. i ain't never cheap.. i have my flaws and everything.. but i can't see myself as a waste to let others pick-up after myself..

So... If u ever feel like taking that sweet life of urs.. just pick up that phone and dial 103 and ask for befrienders as advised by my lovely lecturer Mdm Flora.. personally.. i say just call any of ur pals.. go out clubbing.. have some booze if that makes u happy.. talk.. open up.. don't mess it up with what nots or what it could have been as that is the past.. just think of what u want.. how u plan to get it and set a goal... plan that long overdue vacation.. if u gona kill urself i say u damn well deserve a time out..

Love that man of mine..

Love this clip!!

MeRdEKa!!

It's our country's 50 anniversary of it's independance and here I am celebrating at PureBar counting down the final secomds with my friends.. After all that our country has been through.. The GOOD and the BAD.. It is truely remarkable the strides that has taken place and how far we've come.. Dancing to our country's independance may not be the idealistic way of celebrating but as we'd just finnished our criminal paper it fealt great..

I was tempted into pondering one question that night.. What state will our country be in in the next 50 years.. Will our country be totally different? Will the cultures of this country be assimilated? Will such unity still exist?

As for now.. I shall enjoy this celebration and leave these thoughts for another day..

Boy Meets Boy

The story of my life.. Or so I had hoped and dreamed in my childhood.. it sounds simple enough but life never is.. We meet people along the way.. Some we charish moments together that may last a time while others its just a moment of a fleeting shared glance..

Its wonderfull to feel these emotions and also hurtful when it ends.. I remember staring into this guys eyes once.. It was a long stare we shared that lasted a little to long to be normal.. Such bliss and mystery it gave me in my years of solitude in search of my man to come.. It was not the fact that i did not get meet that guy.. but the shared glance was enough to give me hope for things to come..

I am reminded on a book on young love.. As the title of this blog suggest its called Boy Meets Boy by David Levthan.. Such a simple sweet book that won my heart.. A book i wished i had as a boy growing up..


When u think on it.. Is gay love really different from that of str8t love?

Back to school... that we call life!

Owh.. life is full when ur busy and can't seem to find the time for urself... Assignments, friends, research, reports.. Ain't life grand!! Student life seems so leisurely, u don't have to worry about bills, mortgage, any of those mundane stuff that are associated with adulthood.. But it is easily forgotten by our parents what it was like to feel young.. the yearning to do stuff. To make our own mistakes.. to feel in love and not feel alone.. We make our stand.. each generation doing it differently from the past.. each of us trying to make our mark.. Being different is nothing new.. it is that we rise above ourselves and try to make a difference that we truly define ourselves.. hum.. who am I to judge.. made my share of mistakes.. and I’ll probably make more.. hopefully I’ll learn from the past.. but the mistake is mine to make, for how else am I to learn?

Musings of a young man..

I feel like there's something missing... the second foot hasn't fell.. the quite before the storm.. I feel people are holding out on me.. I felt the week was great but that it was not over.. my world is this expanding bubble that is about to burst but just wouldn't... I am in anticipation of a certain disaster.. i'm feeling so pessimistic and yet I can't help myself.. feeling hopeless in this situation.. An impending disaster? Only time will tell..

Is there trust here? I feel like every turn is a pitfall.. will a small mistake will be the end of me? No one is telling the truth or are they keeping it to themselves? Why can’t they be open.. communication is key rite? Can there ever be trust? To hell with this..

A Firts Date..

These feelings of insecurity is always prevalent before I go on a date.. So freaking nervous that I resort to calling my friends just to pass the time till that moment approachers.. I mean in these days and times online dating is not a big deal.. U exchange pics.. Make a few calls and then u meet.. But i must say.. This was a first for many.. First it was one of the fastest that i set a date for which we would meet up.. Another is that this guy did not plan to get into my pants on the first date... Big potential there.. Uhm.. what else? even after a day i still have that uplifting feeling.. Well a dinner followed by ice-cream seems like a typical date but for me it was a milestone as i for one hv never been in any sort of date let alone a relationship.. This is a first of first in the hopes that there'll be more to come.. So I'll leave it there.. For now!!

Gunung Nuang here i come!!

Woah can hiking be taken into a new level when u add PLU into the picture.. Man the first thing that came to my mind was an orgy in the woods.. well who wouldn’t have entertained that idea.. But enough of this non-sense.. it started with the guys picking us up at Pudu.. from which we went TESCO.. got our supplies and headed back to one of the guys houses.. it was there that were I gathered myself an got to know our host who to me was very welcome since he had not even met me once.. very generous of him..


We then had dinner at a nearby stall from which a few other members were introduced.. The next day we all set out early to meet the other hikers.. these guys come from all walks of life.. some old some just starting there life others like me still in Uni.. I guess I was the youngest.. with my lack of experience I was kinda nervouse… plus my friend who came with me was stuck with his ‘partner’ so I was left to fend for myself.. it was all good as I was then introduced to a few great guys who I then spent most of the trip with,..


Hiking up to the campsite was plain torture.. with a few advice from joe and crewcut I found that most of it was due to improper use of the equipment.. the ground was muddy and slippery.. fuh!! Was sweeting like mad.. along the way saw many beautiful sites.. kind of woodsy type of person.. um.. after 3-4 hours tracking with God know how many pitstops.. we manage to reach the campsite..




We set up the camp an I took the opportunity to jump into the water.. and was it freezing!! I think my balls were like ice-cubes the whole trip:P.. that nite after the introduction sessions nad most of the others were in bed I gave the suggestion to play strip poker.. man was I in for a surprise.. I was the first to loose but thankfully not the only one.. I was winning and suddenly I had a loosing strike that came out of nowhere..

So off came the pants and everything.. later we all jumped into the water buff!! Let me assure u that nothing improper happened.. we were after all in the woods..

Next day those who wanted to go to the peak headed up while the rest of us (including me) minded the camp.. After D-camping we all headed down.. this trip was much easier.. made it in roughly 1-2 hours..


Going back I went with abang zack and abang amir.. they dropped me off at abang azmi’s house which I thought was the agreed upon meeting.. but due to some misunderstanding with my friends I had to wait 30-45 minutes until the got back from Dinner!! Well life’s teaches u stuff and I took this as a lesson learned..


But overall it was a great experience.. met great guys.. caring individuals.. a myriad of personalities.. (hey, i kinda acted abit queeny during the end of the trip, who new i had it in me?) :p

Hiking??

Whoa.. what have I gotten myself into? Hiking!! And Gunung Nuang at that.. I must confess I’m in no shape to do any such stunt.. It’s been so long that I have camped that I forgot the last time I did it.. We hopefully it’ll be fun.. I need this stress reliever if its gonna kill me.. :p

Hum.. Thank the stars that my exams are finally over.. minus of course Criminal Law which is on the 30th and that leaves me only with my assignments..

Oh well.. Will see how this week turns out..

Owh P/s: Did i mention i got a new haircut?

Pride? Is there such a thing here?

There was always some part of me that thought.. what the heck.. just put a pride flag out my window.. Suicidal? I dunno.. but i did it never the less.. here in this community.. u can never know its reaction.. well hopefully it won't attract undue attention.. Freedom of expression rite? So.. first off.. where can I get such a flag? Well the answer to that question is that it was custom made.. thanks to my seamstress.. (sounds gay, i know, but tell u the truth.. that women is a blessing).. anyways.. until next time.. Were here, were queer, and theres nothing u can do about it!!

A new day!!

It can be unexpected, what a day brings.. I went to KL yesterday to send a friend home.. A trip that was such a new experience as I haven't been on a road trip such as this with my friends in Malacca.. A spur of the moment idea, which turned into a blessing in disguise.. Spent the night at her house(father insisted).. we then decided (at my urging) to skip class and go out for a day trip.. of all the times it turned out today was our lucky day as lecture was cancelled.. we spent the day exploring KL in many ways.. from new routes to new foods to delight our taste buds.. thinking the day was at an end with us going back.. I had a pleasant surprise to get a text from a friend wanting to meet up.. so the evening was not an end.. spent 30 minutes cleaning my room for the arrival surprising myself at how fast it took.. now exhausted from all the action.. I shall retire to bed early.. in hope that I shall make it to tmrows class.. A lessoned learned is that in everything we do.. there is always a silver lining.. and today I’m remembered of this simple act that has lead to such wonderful day..

05 Jul 2007, 04:01

Today I'm pissed!! It is as if someone were to tell me that I'm just a piece of meat!! I mean hey I love sex just as the next guy.. But I do have some pride.. If a guy tells you he'll msg u tmrow u should at least understand that it is late and some of us do plan to go to class tmrow.. granted that I'm up late.. but hey, gave u my number said i'll msg u tmrow, the least u could do was wait.. NOO.. u had to call.. when my mind is half asleep!! then to make things worst u proposition me ta hook-up and sleep with u? What is this?? I ain't that cheap.. I said let's have dinner.. will take it from there.. u didn't even hv the courtasy to give me ur pic.. Man these day's.. Arn't there any out there that are halfway decent..

Argh.. If by chance understand this.. congrates to u.. hum.. lesson learned..

5tH DaY - HeaDiNg hOmE!!

It's the end! Finally we were to head back to kl.. But first we have to still embark on our journey back to mainland.. It was declared that we shall set sail at dawn.. My CAP was found just as we were about to load the kayak.. God is all mercifull as I really didn't what I would do without it.. The trip back was expacted to take longer as we were paddling with the waves.. As before me and Ariff were paired againmuch to the dismay of Nina.. (laughs evilly)..

As we set off, we found that the waves kept putting us off-course.. ariff kept looking back which futher made the kayak unstable... guess its kind of payment as last time i wasn't much of help.. kept pushing and finally we found ourselves in sight of the inlet were heading.. As we were to over excited we paddled to hard and water flooded our boat causing us to capsize!! Luckly fareeza and mat were there to signle for help.. Trying to self rescue was impossible as the water level too high.. After the water was emptied we just applied the self resccue tecnique..

After making the last streach we finally made it and as we reached the inlet i was blessed with my first glance of FLYING FISH.. i'm not kiddinf.. they were so beautiful that i though i was imagening things.. but the instructers saw them too.. as we aproached the pier we capsized again all thanks to ariff's idea of being different and not like others.. it was then that i lost my cap for the final time!!

The trip ended with going to the bus station as i really needed the ATM mechine then.. baught some fruits and road the bus home.. on the way we stop and baught 'satah' which for me was a first!!.. What a trip.. I'm so dark my gran will deffinately have a shock seeing me like this..

4Th DaY

PrAcTIcE!! pRaCtiCE!! prACTice!! that's what helped us pass our practical test.. man couldn't wait for the rest so me and arif decided to go first.. After the swimming test which all of us took.. we were then told to take turns for the practical exam.. first come first serve.. well arif and i decided we didn't want to wait so he went second and i third.. almost didn't make it.. water overflowed in when i capsised.. luckly i did well in the self rescue.. (albiet taking my time in doing so).. well that night the test went well.. everyone help each other.. those who did not study depended on those who did.. to top the night off we had barbeque..

3rD dAy

So were leaving to pulau kapas today.. GoD!! we weren't even out of the cove and already me and arif were bickering.. AZrif kept crackering jokes making my hands feel like jelly from laughing.. Ahead of us, Nyah shouted 'sudah la tu,dari belakang sana aku dapat dengar korang'.. Along the way thirst hit me hard.. Was soo thirsty.. I finnished a 1.5 litre botel in half the journey.. luckly I got a botle from Nina.. God bless that gurls soul.. In 4 hours we arrived.. aparently our group were the longest to arrive in the history of this course.. When i got back after the holidays.. i was going to class with arif and as usual we were bickering.. Ahead of us Nyah/Ita turned and said.. 'I dah agak dah mesti korang.. I can tell ur voices from anywhere..'

2Nd DaY

Wah.. today was basically learning the basics and to get to know the other participants.. the weather was milder and we swam in the river.. at times the water was kinda dark and OMG filthy.. me and arif were partners at times while i also practised with fareeza.. wanted to try with nina but man was the girl busy.. Finally managed to get her in the afternoon.. once we were togather.. loads of problems.. commanding issues.. but shhe was cool.. got each other new partners..

1st DAY

We finally arrived.. after making a few stops and a late brunch we arrived at Pusat Kenu Negeri Terengganu.. unpacked and had an introductory course by mr. syafie.. we were then introduced to our instructors; MIZI, AYUB, Rosli among the few.. after learning abit about kayak anatomy we all went kayaking.. basically most of us floundered to learn the new tecniques.. Dinner was a normal affair and then came the ice-breaking session.. Right after we slept as we were exhausted..

Leaving for Kuala Ibai....!!

Finally the damn exams are over.. leaving me three days to settle my things back home and to come back to malcca.. Yup.. thanks to my friend arif, who's brilliant idea was for us to go to Kuala Ibai join a kayak expedition to pulau kapas.. i'm now on my way to terengganu.. we left on a school bus.. giving some doubt's to our safety by Ms. Nina who has some issue there :p.. (hey, I may share some of that sentiment) anyways.. gotta go.. leaving soon.. huhu..kinda excited.. :p

Study.. study.. study..

Yay.. Only left with this last one paper .. then i'm bound home free!! hum.. the other day was spent in the library cam whoring.. Read notes that was a total waste, as none of which came out.. Should have known better than to read on Syariah Courts..


Hehe.. Arif was playing with Sara's ring.. pretending to be engage konon!! Poor Steven......... Was so much fun seing Nina grab for the ring my God! her face was so bloated it looked surreal!! After that little mood was left to study in.. It left with our main pastime.. CAM WHORING!!





Finally the Miss's got back her ring and the spell was broken.. She's prety at long last!! :p Anyways.. we headed for dinner.. still cam whoring the whole way..

Goodbye Legal Language II!!!

Finally that damn exam is finally over.. Was up all night worrying about that paper. Glad it is now over and done with.. Woohoo..! Went out for breakfast at McD around 4am.. Man weren't we grateful they serve it early here.. Went with my housemate and 2 girl friends.. While eating I was looking into my friends hp and came across this pic.. Thinking it was a picture of his ass I showed it to the gurls.. God!! My mate took one look at the pic and laughed out loud.. Turns out it was not his pic but mine.. In my hurry to erase it I mistakenly looked into the next pic. Boy was I in for another surprise.. Turns out he had a picture of his own.. Lets just say it was too explicit.. His excuse was to say he was bored the night before.. Now it was my turn to laugh.. To my dismay he took the hp and deleted the pic.. After that didn't have the mood to study.. Just kept chatting.. Forced to cram some stuff in the end and we left to go change. All in all I was basically glad that exam was over.. Now I need to get ready for tomorrows exam.. Hum.. Guess I got to get going.....

America's Next Drag Top Model!!

Saw this page while going through the net.. Man was I in for a surprise.. Made me laugh like hell.. And the pic's were definitely well taken... Congrats to the photographer..
Here is to Thomas Locke Hobbbs and his outrages pics!!

All RISE!!

Today was one off those days when something wonderful but totally unexpected happened. The night before, I was asked by a friend to help a friend of a friend with a problem in which her friend had to appear to the courts. The story goes is that this friend had a run with the law and as a foreigner the police tried to bribe him. Following their failure to extort from him the issued him a warrant of appearance.

The problem arised when the said friend had an exam on he date an time of the appearance. We decided to go early to the IPK Malacca to inform them that our friend could not attend the appearance. Once we were there we were told that we could not send such a letter as the court hearing was in an hour. We explained that as a foreigner he did not know the Malaysian legal system.


Dejected we decided to have breakfast. Half way through we got a call from a friend’s dad stating that we should go to the court hearing and ask for a new subpoena. If not the court would issue a warrant of arrest.So we all went to the Makhamah Magistrate Air Keroh. Upon reaching there we were told to go to the Magistrate Court 1 which was the Traffic Court. We then gave the warrant of appearance to the bailiff. We waited for three hours before the court heard our case by then most cases were already decided. Let’s say nervous did not cover the magnitude of what I was feeling. As usual, I’m always terrified of doing something new in which I have this deep fear of humiliating myself publicly.

So it was with great trepidation that I approached the bench. I gave my IC and asked permission from the court to speak English as I knew I would totally be a mess if I were to speak Malay. I said I was representing my friend as he could not attend the hearing as he had an exam. With that I gave the court a copy of his exam certificate and student id and a copy of his Malaysian Immigration ID. The court asked my relationship with the accused and I said I was a friend and with that I gave my student ID proving I was a student. I then told the court that my friend just finished his exam and that he was on is way. The court to my surprise said that they would wait for him to come. Man! I was left speechless. Thinking I would get a new court hearing I was going to have to prepare my friend in minutes.


I was left waiting for my friend a half an hour all the while praying that he would come. I confess that I was afraid that this friend might have left me stranded. Afraid I might get a contempt of court I urged my friend to call him. But I was proved wrong as he showed up later and explained he was late due to the fact that he got lost. The bailiff was already sneering at me. He then had uttered these words: ‘kau ni nak klentong makhamah ke? MMU tu tak jauh! Apa yang lambat sangat ni?’ Suffice to say I was glad when he arrived.

After waiting for another 20 minutes my friend was called to appear before the court. Due to his lack of understanding of the Malay language I was allowed to approach the court and help translate the legalese. He was charged under 2 counts. After explaining the charges he pleaded guilty on 2 counts.

I then pleaded to the court for a lighter sentence as this case was a matter of circumstances and furthermore my friend was a first time offender. It was to our amazement that the court gave him a very light sentence due to the situation. A fine of RM100 was issued for each count.


Well my mom always said that a good deed never went unrewarded and it will always be with me that my first appearance before the court. It was a simple traffic case but it gave me confidence that no debate or mock trail in class ever could.